Preface: The following is a continuation of Part 1 of Mark Shapiro's "A Tiny Idea," which I had previously featured on this blogsite. Here's the link to it:
Here is Part 2:
What is love? By the way, thank you for your comments to
Part 1, which seemed to point to this query. But rather than trying to answer
this rather thick question right off the bat, I’d like to define its cousin,
romance.
Romance is the belief that someone or some thing outside
of myself has the power to change how I feel. The key word in this is
“belief”. Beliefs are investments in the future. I have a romance with my car because I
believe that my car will bring me feelings of security, love, and power;
therefore, I have a relationship with it. My expectations are full of hope that
I will get what I want. The reason I got so upset when the Rambler broke down
was not because the car wouldn’t run, but because my hopes and expectations were
eroding. The vehicle that I depended on let me down.
The meaning of my
relationship was brought into question and I didn’t want to look at it. The
source of virtually all psychological pain is the excruciating effort it takes
to hide. And what is so important that we balance on the brink of insanity (and
often go over the edge) just so we don’t have to confront some truth?
What is it that’s so upsetting when we break up with
someone? It can be so painful, that sometimes we jump to the next romance in a
seamless transition, in an attempt to avoid the inevitable “why”. Too often
there is finger pointing; “you did this to me” or “I sacrificed so much for
you”. These types of statements may be an attempt to escape the pain, but all
they do is prolong it. As long as ideas like
“you make me happy”, or “you make me sad” are thrown about; romance is
verified and the system continues.
Only when I get honest and look at my dirty
secrets, will the pain start to leave, because it’s that huge amount of effort
it takes to keep me in the dark that hurts. Breakups are one of the most
powerful learning tools we have, if we’re willing to look into the mirror.
Romance offers salvation--
I have given you the job to save me from myself, and you
gladly took it on. When we discover that we have failed, the blame game ensues.
And it gets uglier than that. Not only have you failed to save me, but you have
also caused me untold misery.
What these haphazard paragraphs are pointing to is the cause
of romance. We humans have two basic desires: to join and to separate.
Obviously, the two are mutually exclusive. We either do one or the other at any
given moment. Romance promises to accomplish the impossible by joining while
remaining separate. All it asks for in exchange is blindness. Anthropologists
tell us that we need these because it’s part of the DNA sequencing for
preservation of the species. Without it, they tell us, we’d lose our
individuality and with it the creative drive. We’d become the Borg. “Resistance
is futile.”
Anthropologists also recognize the desire to join. We are told that
we are a social species that require group cultures with activities that aid in
physical protection and psychological well-being. Since joining and separating
cannot co-exist at the same time, all cultures have devices to weave a fabric
that seems to bring these two contrary ideas close enough together to allow us
to believe that the impossible is true. One tiny but untrue idea is all it
takes: Separation while joined is not only possible, but real. Herein lies the
definition of romance.
If romance is a belief, then what is love?
What most people call love, is a form of directed
love/romance towards one object/person. It is based on feelings of need and
want. What’s wanted varies from each individual. When the person becomes too
frustrated from not getting what is wanted, the love turns to hate. Thus, love
and hate of this variety are two sides of the same coin.
This kind of love/hate
is based on specialness. I love or hate this person, but not that person. It is
a very exclusive club–not everyone is invited. Those considered for membership
are divided into two groups: those who might go into the hate bin, and those
who might go into the love basket. The chooser has the right to remove or switch
each selection. I may love my 90 Corolla now, but if it should betray me at
some point, I might throw it away or put it into the hate bin so I can curse it
for ruining my life.
We all know that my Rambler didn’t ruin my life, I was
dependent on it, and the bargain I struck up with it was my own, not the car’s.
If I had no expectations of this motorized vehicle, I wouldn’t be upset. It’s
the same for people.
It is clear to me that the number one problem with love
relationships is the holding of secret hopes, expectations, and agendas. These
are often so secret that we have no idea they exist. Sometimes they are briefly
exposed when special love turns into special hate. These windows can be hurtful
because a backlog of anger and frustration are released in a relatively short
span of time. Once the venting process has concluded, the person of interest
will either be thrown away or put back into one of the compartments.
So why did the young woman in Part 1 want to return to her
abusive husband? Simply put, the cost (being beaten up) was worth what she felt
she was getting (the belief that she loved someone who loved her). Without
going into the psychological issues of spousal abuse, I would like to remain on
topic of what is love. For this woman, the belief (cause) was more important to
uphold than the pain and suffering that came as the effect. And why is this
belief so important?
Why is any belief so important?
Beliefs plant us into the
future and prevent us from being present. Many people say that this is
important because it gives us humans the ability to plan ahead and make our
lives better. But isn’t that a belief as well?
The future is nothing but
projection; the past is but memories, and they are not real; but Love is Now, and
there is nothing else.
Ariel's notes: Mark Shapiro is retired and lives on the Big Island of Hawaii. He currently drives a 1990 Toyota Corolla Wagon with a 5-speed transmission. It’s the best car he has ever owned.
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- ARIEL MURPHY